I had a bad time as a teenager up until I was 20, but I believed it to be all trauma related. Once I had ECT and dealt with the trauma I believe I was cured because I didn't agree with the BP dx. I was good for awhile.

Suddenly 26 rolls around and I'm back to being suicidally depressed. Then, I experienced my first ever euphoric hypomania, that probably slid into manic territory for a couple of days when I believed I was a special healer. It's been rapid cycling she since, except when I take the proper dose of medicine.

Looking back, knowing what I now know and being more willing to see it, I can see I definitely had episodes all troughout this six years. They were just mild enough that I didn't see them for what they were. I mean I know I had depressions and I admitted that to myself back then, but now I can see te hypomania too. Knowing that it didn't stay happy for me for long and often devolved into anger and irritability.

As I'm only 27 I hope the symptoms will not get any more severe as life goes on. Right now I usually only have mania for a couple of days, which doesn't count for a DSM dx. Hopefully I won't ever qualify!