i been thinking about that. she said she wanted me to sign medical release forms over to them so she could talk to my new psychiatrist and i said "NO!". i didnt realize she was being judgemental. i just thought it was a trap.

but see theres like no other good therapists around here. and shes half good. all the other therapists i saw were 0 percent good and i think i saw 2 or 3 in the same town i goto see her. which has a medium population. under 250k or so.

idk what to do. ive been thinking about changing but its put me in a bind too. i question her too though.

and THEN she was like "tell your psychiatrist about your throwing up and eating habits" and i said "NO! im not getting a diagnosis of an eating disorder. im sick of diagnoses. im not gettnig another one". and she got quiet. cause ive been throwing up a lot. mostly from nerves and various things but i been encouraging myself to throw up instead of holding it in like i would normally do. to lose weight. but a doctor could easily take that wrong i think. and automatically think ED. or something. and im just not having that. but somehow my therapist gets things out of me. like the whole story like KUREHA said.