I read your posts TJ. I have been feeling better lately and I notice myself totally avoiding the depression section. I don't feel right about it and even started a thread on it. I didn't title it well.

I often check to see if anyone has responded to threads I have started looking for validation. I have noticed that sometimes this section is very active and sometimes not. There are a million reasons why people do not respond to posts. That have nothing to do with you. As many people that there are that belong to this forum there are only a small handful that are pretty active in this section. The addiction section is basically dead which I don't like, but this is a mental health forum and there are plenty of addiction forums. Anyway. I also notice that certain times of day are very inactive. People are working, dealing with kids, and so on. I only have time to notice these things and post because I am not working and this summer hopefully I will be much busier and not be able to come here as much. I have noticed to that there are tons of nonmembers looking at this section all the time. We must be helping someone.

As far as what you are going through. I have followed you progress with your T and you are making remarkable progress. Sure we are going to have setbacks. A lot of heavy stuff comes up. If you believe in god there is a saying "that god never gives us any more than we can handle". Poppycock I often say to that because it feels like a lot more than I can handle.

As far as your GP goes. I know how you feel. I always think that everyone expects that I am going to be doing better when I am not. I started keeping a mood log and just hand it to my pdoc to read. He likes the idea a lot and reads it even if it is real long. I can't remember how I was doing last week and I always forget what I want to say and I tend to want to say I am doing better when I am not. My mood log doesn't lie and he sees what is really going on. It has been a huge help. Be totally honest with him because it is not fair to him to do otherwise. He can only help you if you are honest. Forget about what expectations you think he might have.

Speaking of that when I am feeling better I tend to totally ignore my mood log. Which I shouldn't do because I need to be able to look back and see that I was doing good and what worked.

Here is the thread I started on here about forums and posting.

http://forums.psychcentral.com/depre...holy-crap.html