I'm suicidal. I know we aren't supposed to post things like "I'm going to kill myself", but that's NOT what this is. I'm actually having a very nice, easy morning and it's giving me a lot of time to think.
Suicide is such a taboo. If I bring it up, I'm told to go to the ER (and I know that's sound advice: no criticisms), but just because I'm thinking about it doesn't mean I'm on the verge of doing it. I think about death a lot. I'm a very suicidal person. Are there other people like me? Are there places where I can talk about this? Sometimes it seems that even in mental health circles there are avoided topics, and this feels like one of them. What it feels like to think about it, why you think about it, etcetera. I have no close friends, and I could never bring this up with my family. Is it wrong that I just really want to talk and express these things that I don't understand? Sometimes I feel like I'm stuck in this bubble, where I can't say anything to anyone but me, and it's not that no one cares, it's that they don't have time or don't understand.

I guess this is kind of like me sending a radio signal out into the world: "I'm here, please help, is there anyone else out there? Anyone?"

Btw...I know therapy is a place to talk. But I can't afford it. I'm a flat broke college student.