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Originally Posted by Atypical_Disaster
They're interfering with my thoughts. I can't take much more of this.
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They're trying to do the same thing to me. That's what the noise in my head is for.
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I'm too scared to call her, I'm worried that she's in on it.
Psychiatry feels more like a ****ed up game to me than an actual attempt to help me.
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I agree. I've decided to dump my CMHT as they don't believe that I'm not faking this ****!!
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Originally Posted by Atypical_Disaster
I just don't understand. If I'm sick then why don't the meds help? That must mean it's real.
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IDK...Lots of people say I'm depressed, but meds haven't helped that and that's real, so maybe you just haven't found the best one yet?
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Originally Posted by Atypical_Disaster
Haldol has helped, and to some extent Zyprexa. But I'm scared that meds are poison, there's really no need for me to die. It's not necessary even though I don't see a point in going on right now.
Things have just been getting weirder and weirder.
But those drugs are there just to blind me to the truth, I know better than to fall for their sick little games.
I'm not on any anti psychotics right now and I feel like I can actually think now so what's the point in being on them? I don't see one.
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Why did you stop the AP?
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Originally Posted by KUREHA
Just watching my local news and they were talking about police checking emails, texts and calls. They read out some views and only 1 saw a problem with this 
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Yeah that stuff freaks me out. I know that my mobile line has been tapped so they know what I'm saying. It sucks! And I don't get how others can think this is acceptable!? I'm just a person on benefits, not a criminal or a terrorist or something!
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Thanks. I just don't understand why they're wanting to medicate me for something that's not there. This stuff is real and I'm sick of people not believing me. Nobody believes a word I say for ****'s sake.
These pills MAKE me symptomatic. I didn't have issues with thought disorganization until AFTER I was medicated. WTF. Can NOBODY ****ing see this except me? These damn drugs are poison and I'm sick of everybody telling me I need to take them. It's ********.
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I worry about the meds being poison, and a lot of them have caused me awful side effects, so I can understand you feeling that way. Is there anyone IRL you can talk to and get a reality check/second opinion/advocate from?
Trying to get hold of a dr to talk to about my Mum is nigh on impossible! Grrrrr! I want to know the facts so I can stop worrying about things which might never happen.
Also I've decided to cancel my GP appt on Wed. If I might need to be a donor for Mum, then I can't say anything to anyone that they might think is attention seeking because I will need to pass the psych eval.
Mum wants me to write a letter to the CMHT expressing my POV on the inaccuracies in my notes, to be put in my notes. But I don't really see the point: they're not going to believe anything I say, and it will probably be seen as me trying to get attention by desperately trying to prove that I'm mentally ill *sigh*
I worry that having told you guys what my notes said, that you will now think that too
*Willow*