Rayne I feel the same way. Do I tell T hell no, she'll call the police. I think about it all the time. Sometimes though I get serious and have plans and I have to be calmed and taken off the edge. My best paintings come from me at these times. I keep sharp objects away from myself at the times and paint no matter the time or anything.

I figure if it gets really bad I live 5 min from er an takes cops bout 2 min to get to my house. Do u live with someone? I think about my partner when it's bad. I don't want to traumatize her. Whenever u feel suicidal but aren't going to act on it come here go in chat, find someone on and pm them even if u don't know them. They may chat with u, if they don't mp someone else.