I have never done drugs. Ever. I have once thought about smoking pot but ended up not doing it. But with having some anxiety again lately I am dreading and pleading with my inner self NOT to go back to where I have been in the past! I don't have a quick fix med go to for sudden on set anxiety....I kind of ruined that when, well I OD on klonopin last yr. I doubt my Dr now will give me something like that.

I have found myself considering just trying pot. I know its illegal in my state but Im not working so Im not drug tested and I don't wanna deal with anxiety and Im wondering if it will help. My anxiety is causing me to clench my teeth all the time and Ive got TMJ now that Im dealing with on top of everything else. Usually self-harm is where I go to.

I just want to be normal. I even talked to my Dr about how something happened last week that made me super overwhelmed and it upset me because I don't see how it should be overwhelming! She asked me if I thought it should be easy for everyone or for me. I said everyone. She then asked if I thought I was like everyone else.

Guess not.