Hi ToeJam, well I'd say that your T could have been a bit more supportive/sensitive if she felt you had taken a back step. But that could as much show that you are
actually progressing. In therapy things can often get a lot harder before "
real" improvement, and that can just be part of the process. It just shows that you are opening up about and maybe facing/challenging some personal/painful things, which
is good.
As for your G.P. appointment could you cancel (wait for it!!) and rebook for another time in the day/day with another G.P. in the surgery if the one you're seeing really isn't listening. Otherwise, only alternative would be to
make them listen. Voice your concerns as
loudly and
assertively (not easy I know, but...) as you have to.
There will be a crisis team in your area somewhere though, so if you're having a real hard time then do you think you could call them? In fact it might not at all be a bad thing if you did and could get some ongoing help from them, as your G.P. doesn't seem to be as "experienced" with supporting you as they would be. Now they
should be "on the ball"!!
I know it's got to be really hard for you though, and with depression even the "simplest" things can seem like a mountain. Just try, and try, and try to remind yourself that in the bigger picture/compared with how you're feeling anyway, they don't
have to take that much away from you. Much easier said than done I know

but............
As for the eating, glad you're seeming to be breaking through with that,
just a little
This time (if not the last time??) it certainly seems to be linked with the depression but were there any techniques/strategies you used the last time to help you eat e.g. agreeing on a certain number of calories per day, a certain number of "snacks", certain foods??
As for not getting many replies, No, you're not saying or doing
anything wrong in my opinion. I'd say that you're giving
great feedback about how it is for you.
For me, since I've been back over the last few months and caught some of your threads, I have missed answering on your last couple (?) of threads because I thought the advise you'd got was
so much better than
anything I could add. But thoughts are with you ToeJam.
Alison