There are times I feel that way. I often wonder, where was I before I was born? I know that's a heavy question.

Some people have told me that life is a gift; and I have a purpose. I often don't feel that way. And like I asked earlier about where was I before I was born; why am I put in a place where there's suffering? It seems like lately I've been more aware on how difficult life can be.

For the most part, my parents had passed away. I found out only a couple of years after they passed away that they had never planned on having kids. I have two brothers and a sister. So, we were "accidents". I was shocked when I heard that. But then I had wondered why did they talk a lot about how hard it is to have kids. It seemed like they were angry with us a lot.