Hey everyone.
Thank you for taking the time to respond to me. Honestly, it just helps to know there are other people out there who have thought the same thing. Suicide isn't always an in-the-moment thing, but no one ever wants to talk about it.
As for the college counseling service, yes, there is one, and I've been to it. I didn't connect well with any of the counselors, and they also charge you $20 a visit. Which is really $20 I don't have.