Thanks all for your thoughts, and hugs to those who are feeling similarly.
I am feeling better now than I was at this point last week, though am scared for my Drs appt on Monday. I have to get my stitches out at that time and my T has since spoken with my Dr re: self-harm and suicidal ideation. I think they're both worried for me

Oh well, at least everyone will be on the same page..