Anyone ever have moments - where you're sitting down at night - after a long day - and you feel compelled to send a text off to a friend, but the person you text doesn't reply...
Then anxiety sets in, you know that your thoughts are irrational because of all the therapy and awareness training you've endured - but no matter how hard you try and rationalize with yourself, your thoughts lead into a full blown panic attack - and because your friends aren't replying means that you're unloved and unworthy of their friendships...
I have been having this a lot over the years. I find that if one person doesn't reply to my text messages, then I have to send off a bunch of them in order to verify that I am liked and loved by others... I'm constantly seeking validation. And it seems that no amount of text messages will allow me a restful mind...
I'm writing this right now - under the influence of these thoughts and I'm on the verge of tears. I feel it coming up, but I'm trying to fight the urge to just let my emotions out all at once.
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