Aaahh Terroni, It sounds like you are getting into defeatist thinking. Try to focus on preparation.

I would be in a panic anticipating being qrilled by an administrative judge, so I don't mean to minimize your stress. But the more you have an idea what questions will come at you and what the best answers should be, the less you will get like a "deer in the headlights," or say too much, which can be just as bad.

It's taken a lot to get to this stage. Hang in there.