Thank you everyone for replying,

I appreciate everything that was shared! It's so hard to remember that I'm not alone, but just hearing what you've all said really hit me hard. I cried. It means a lot, so thank you all for replying. You've made my day a lot lighter.

I haven't dealt with my emotions for a long time. I've been pushing them aside. But every so often I get disconnected and suddenly my emotions start coming out and I'm scrambling to get a hold of someone, anyone - by way of texting. I really can't believe how much of an impact it has on me. Sometimes I wonder how many of my friends feel the same. I have always been one to reply immediately upon receiving text messages, simply because of how I feel when I don't get an immediate reply... Sometimes I fight tears off in order to keep myself from texting someone again and again - knowing that I am slowly driving them away from me. I just wish there was someone who knew and understood what it was like being on the opposite side of things... I wish I could text another sufferer - and not have to dodge explanations for sending off an occasional text...