We are here and it is talked about a lot here. I have never seen a mod shut down a thread where we talking about it. I believe the intent is to not post if you are in imminent danger.

That last very deep depression I was in I thought about it everday. I had plans, a number of them. I told my pdoc and he never sent me to the hospital but maybe he should have. I couldn't go through with it. I kept thinking about the aftermath. Big difference between thoughts and actual plans. Thoughts can pop in a lot. Then I started praying every night that god would take me and I would wake up dead. Or that I would get some fast acting terminal disease and then everyone would understand. poor zinco he is going to die and nothing can be done about it. how sad.