I generally do not think my thoughts are irrational but I know others will think so and don't share. Sometimes I have no idea though so I can't help but share my beliefs like believing God is talking to me or believing the Holy Spirit likes water and would leave if I didn't drink gallons a day. My husband knew about those things because I didn't know enough to hide them. He thought they were insane. Plus, I thought the Holy Spirit was casting out demons through me and I thought that all of my prayers would be answered so I was laying my hands on people to pray for them. When my grandmother was on her deathbed I believed the Holy Spirit had me pray for her to die and be with the Lord so I did. When she died a week later, I thought it was because of my prayers. Sometimes I still do. That is scary.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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