Thanks guys. I was meant to see my t today. That was getting me through. I'd think about sending him a txt and I'd think 'two days to go I can hang in to then' or 'one day to go I can hang in to then'. Well today was the day and so of course his administrator just phoned to say he is off sick. Cold or flu or something like that. My heart sank.

Three days to go. Assuming it is just a cold and he manages to get it under control by then.

This is why you shouldn't depend on anyone. Ugh. I hate mysef so much.