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Originally Posted by potterhead6
Okay. Ever since I was a little girl, I was always really excited about my future husband. I come from a Catholic family, so my dad is especially religious. He's not against gays or anything, but he doesn't support gay marriage 100%. That kinda bothers me, but I do know that he's warming up to the idea. He believes in love, and he's a good guy. It's just how he was raised.
Ever since freshman year (of high school), I've been thinking that maybe I might be bisexual or lesbian even. I started thinking that girls were pretty back in middle school, though I tried to suppress those thoughts. I've never really found guys all that attractive tbh, and I find girls a lot more beautiful and I really only have girl friends. I feel a lot more comfortable around most girls. I had a boyfriend for eight months a few years back, and we made out and stuff, but I never really felt anything for him. It might have just been him, though... Come to think of it, I've had crushes on a lot of guys over the years, but most of them I've never been physically attracted to. (Not like, 'I want to have your babies type of way', just like butterflies in the stomach. XD) There's only been one guy to this day that I can honestly say I felt nervous and happy around.
Idk. I might just be overthinking everything. I'm just confused. It's a lot to think about, of course. I'm not really comfortable with myself, and I'm also just against myself personally kissing another girl because it's just a new thing to me; I was raised up in a household where guys like girls and girls like guys. It's just how things were for me. I didn't really know anyone who was gay. (I'm really hoping this isn't offending anyone. And sorry. I feel like I'm wording this all wrong. I hope I'm not.)
I don't know. I'm just confused. Haha. And it makes me uncomfortable with myself to not even know whether I like guys, girls, or both. Hmm.
Any advice? I'll gladly accept any-and-every-thing. Please feel free to share your experiences and stories, etc  |
That's honestly how I started. I had no idea in middle school if I was bisexual, lesbian, or just crazy. I had a boyfriend my 8th grade year, but we didn't really do much but kiss a few times a month. Going into freshman year, I almost was certain that I was bi, even though my dad was trying to change that. I talked to my best friend (who now is my girlfriend of almost a year), and come to find out, she was the same way--confused about sexuality. Our first kiss happened when I was demonstrating how to do a skating trick, but fell trying, and she fell on top of me. Our lips connected, and at that moment, I knew that I was bi.
I would suggest for you to just experiment with it. Try different things with boys and girls and see how that goes. If it doesn't feel right, then try something else. Just keep this going until you find what feels right for you. It might take a while, but I'm sure that trial and error with this will help you not only learn new boundaries, but what your true sexuality is. As of right now, I'm full-on lesbian (possibly bi-curious), but if I find the right guy, I'll go bi again.
(If you would like, we could do something like a long-distance relationship-type of thing between us)