Thank you for your reply, it's always very helpful for me to have an outside perspective!

I've only just realised how brief I was let me explain a bit more.

My partner can be very emotionally abusive, although he denies it. He ruined Mother's Day (for the third year running!) this year by having me in tears because I didn't wash the pots up and the house was a bit of a mess. He ignored me all day in front of his family and then carried on giving me the silent treatment for 2 days afterwards. He knows I can't stand it. My anxiety was so bad, it affected my work and my sleep and I turned to the painkillers (I have a dependency on them which I'm currently receiving help for) again.

I know that I ultimately control my emotions and only I can hurt myself by letting others influence me etc, but this is exactly why I said I wanted some time on y own in the first place!

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