I text my best friend at night sometimes cause she doesn't sleep due to her bipolar. If she doesn't respond I think she doesn't really love me. But I know she does but u still panic. Get anxiety and fear. It's irrational I know that. I have only three good friends. I wish that circle was bigger. I ask friends at work for their phone numbers and their like ya! But if I put myself out there abd call them they seem to be busy. I hate that. I yearn to have more support. I also want to support others. Sometimes I worry that the friends I do have will die abd I'll have no one. I get fearful that my bf will get sick and die. There is no one like him out there. He loves me so much. I totally understand where yr coming from. I'm sorry it's so hard. It just comes with the territory of bpd. I wish you the best. Take care of yr self.

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