Okay... well... I'll jump in here.

I'm a 65 year old male (sort of...). I've battled mental health problems my whole life.

But I managed to keep my head above water for about the 1st 50+ years. Then I had a not all that serious bout with cancer.

It's been downhill ever since.

I always imagined that if I made it to old age, that my mental health problems would fade away. But, instead, they seem to be getting worse.

Sometimes I begin to feel like I'm gradually slipping away to the point where, perhaps sooner rather than later, there'll be nothing left but my empty shell.

Sometimes I start to think about ways in which I could hasten the process since the idea of just being gone, mentally, has a certain appeal.