I wish I hadn't texted you today (Saturday) I know you never respond but still I am cross with myself for breaking my no contact at the weekend rule. However, I am desperate - I don't know how much longer I can go on like this and I am trying to tell you that I need more from you - more support, more empathy and just a little kindness and understanding. Now I am sure you will pull further away and you will definitely despise me for all this contact. I'm sorry. I think I have messed up and I really didn't mean to.