Symptoms Returning

Im really bummed out because my paranoid symptoms are returning. Its hard for me to even write this because I feel like someone is watching or setting me up. I called a friend first as I was driving and I was convinced someone is following me or trying to take advantage of someone with a paranoid diagnoses. He told me that he wont talk to me anymore because all I come up is with scenarios that don't make sense because he doesn't have the brain that I do. He told me I've been coming up with the same **** for over 5 years. As for my family, they are just sick and tired of it but my mother thinks its substance abuse. She cannot accept that I have this paranoia, the addiction is no good either which I'm working on. I've been absent of all alcohol since November, no heroin, no pills, I do, however take xanax only when needed and subutex. I'm at the point where I wanna do opiates, so I rather take the subutex then put a needle in my arm. This doesn't bring on my paranoia, its always there. Its a condition that she can't even grasp and its really sad.

I sometimes do stupid **** and my addiction talks to me. So on the road driving I tend to look at license plates, sometimes if I feel like someone is following me which is probabky never, I'll pretend to take a pic of them. Its horrible, then today I accused my father about my phone, I also thought my uncle was spying on me because he has an HP computer and I use his old HP tablet. They don't understand that I can't just switch it off. It is debilitating. I called my therapist and I'm waiting for a call back.I really wish my family could just understand but they don't. So now my mom told me to just go and deal with it, but then she will get involved with the meds. Im very happy I posted today under my condition. Its almost like big polar but my mania is paranoia. I just tell myself its in gods hands. Anyone can take advantage of people being labeled mentally I'll. Here are some articles.

Paranoid Personality Disorder - Care Guide

Paranoid thoughts -read these a accounts of people with this condition.

[B]This is a serious condition. I was doing well, then you wake up and its there. Please if you have problems with any of these symptoms, please comment. All I have to do is wait it out. Before I got into a fight with my parents I should of said the quote, THIS TOO SHALL PASS, but every episode you learn a little more. I'm very thankful I can come here and talk about it.I went years being afraid to even write things down.