Dear T,

I don't think you realize you're one of the only people I have right now. I'm not sure if any of this is going to work out anymore. Maybe my problems really are "smoke and mirrors" and I'm stupid for being this depressed. Maybe everything really is all in my mind.
It's weird how we have such a close relationship, but that it cannot be discussed. You get very uncomfortable when this topic comes up and I notice you fidgeting and squirming the entire time. You know how close you let us get and I think you are kicking yourself over it.
Well I'm done here. I don't feel welcome anywhere anymore. I'm not sure there will ever be a place for me.

-Alexis