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Old Mar 12, 2007, 09:10 PM
InACorner InACorner is offline
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You know same goes with SI...I self mutilate alot plus i do have some other things wrong with me as well as i am alittle physically ill...anyway i thought i was undateable as well..i mean in my mind i thought what guy would want to date a girl who has razor marks all over her skin? Well i met this fabulous guy...he talked and i never told him anything then one night he told me that he fell in love with me...i was shocked to say the least...then i realized i havent told him anything about being molested or the SI it was like double whammys...well i eventually called him one night randomly and let it all out...most of it...and he cried..i actually made him cry..i couldnt bring myself to talk to him but ill tell you what that boy called my phone and texted me like a million times a day when we did talk he told me he still loved me and always would and would do whatever it takes to get me help. So here i am now living very happily with him ...he has seen me trigger, he knows about the molestation, seen the SI and dealt with my abusive parents...and yet he still loves me...still makes love to me...and still wants to marry me someday...so it may seem impossible but when they say they want strong women they really mean it...we show we are strong by living and surviving these things (even though we dont feel strong) not by how well we present ourselves in the social world...not by how far we go on the job chain and certainly not how we step on others to get to the top...thank god i learned this at a young age of 18...
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