it does sound like u have a lot of symptoms of schizophrenia. even if u r diagnosed with it employers wouldn't know that information when u look for a job. they aren't going to ask for your medical records most likely unless ur looking to work for the fbi or something idk lol. i have felt a lot of what u have described in the past 10 years but am still mostly functional. i wouldn't be worried about being labeled crazy either because i used to worry about that a lot but have found that a lot of people call themselves crazy and they really don't care. hope this helps. best of luck