I know that I'm not sz but I relate to being embarrassed bc of my mental illness.

When it comes to a certain topic I get triggered. Recently this last episode sucked. I was freaking out crying and not being rational. I even got so paranoid I asked my case manager if she was involved in the topic I get triggered about. Anyway, it's embarrassing. I know the neighbors hear when I'm freaking out so bad.

But the bright side is once I get some sleep and calm down I can laugh at myself. My son and family are like remember when... some of it I don't totally remember bc my mind is racing so fast. But it helps me to laugh at myself. I don't know if that would help you guys.

Btw newtus, I worry about u going off ur meds. right now until I'm completely stable they had to add a med, doxepin. It makes me crave sweets like crazy. I had lost 20lbs but I've gained back 11 of it. It sucks but for me I choose being able to sleep over losing weight right now.

I just hope you'll be ok.