So... I hate everyone. People suck. I love one person, way too much. I'm therefor easily jealous, constantly terrified of her getting sick of me or leaving me. She's amazing though... anyway, she hasn't written to me since friday. She's a heroin addict, who is trying to quit and she can't really talk to anyone during the first days of the abstinence, so I guess that could be it. But she never mentioned giving quitting a shot this weekend. She also suffers from PTSD and BPD and she's tried to commit suicide plenty of times... I'm so afraid she might have OD:d. I can't loose her. She's the one reason I haven't tried to commit suicide since last summer (well, I was close to hanging myself once but my mom, who I didn't realize was home came in and stopped me... but that's it. I was in some weird dissociative mood at the time and I didn't even know what I was doing).
How do you all keep yourselves from not getting this scared and worried?

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