i guess it probably is good that you remain single as you say you want to be, then you can deal with your problems the way you want to. i know its hard sometimes being in a relationsgip where you're not quite sure about anothers committment or advice is either not welcome or it hurts. yes we need to trust the women we are with or men. we do need our self esteem and don't let anyone take it from us. good luck and my prayers are with you