Rose,
The thing that makes the most sense is the part where you said my body is expecting what it is use to in the morning. That is exactly the time I don't eat, and feel I can't. I will try to just make myself eat, even if its just a couple bites of toast this morning.

I wonder if drinking coffee first thing is also destroying any appetite. After all, it makes me wake up but maybe more nervous.

That's a great idea about the instant breakfast. I've looked at it, and if I only use half a pack in a cup of milk, the sugar won't be awfully high. I've been living off of plain yogurt for a while, but I need some protein and meat just doesn't agree with me. I had a burger last night (I took a seroquel and hadn't eaten all day), but it just makes me very grumpy after and I didn't sleep well.

Sometimes I have felt like my gut is ready to explode, and I've told the gp but he doesn't say anything. He said they will only bother with the gallbladder if it becomes really bad. I think that's nuts, but oh well.

Funny about putting on the tv to interrupt my thoughts. I was thinking, as a kid, I also couldn't eat in the morning. Too much going on in my head. I'd find myself just staring at the back of the cereal box to distract myself in any way I could, because I'd probably get a lot more anxious if I didn't eat (mom would flip out at me)..

Food was pushed on me as a kid, and for some reason a lot of things are coming up lately again about the past, which I think feeds my desire to be in control of myself. This is a way of taking control maybe, but I know it's not good for me. I do want to be healthy, but sometimes it's easy to give up and say to heck with health.

Anxiety is horrible again. I may be stuck with using more seroquel, but I don't want to. It's the only thing now that stimulates the appetite. Thanks so much for your reply!