lol. welcome to regression. apparantly regression is fairly typical... you start talking to t about all the little kid feelings and vulnerabilities and stuff and so of course getting more in touch with them means that they get stronger for a time and it is hard to know how to cope with them... hence... welcome to regression :-)

i often feel like a little kid in therapy. and more in particular in how i feel about my therapist.

sounds like i'm in a similar place with you with respect to the transference feelings and also with respect to the frequency of therapy sessions. except that you are more upfront with your therapist than i am. i talk in an abstract manner and while i'm sure that he follows the implications it is NOT something that i am able to discuss with him directly yet.

how did he respond when you said 'sometimes i feel like once a week isn't enough'.

i'm wondering because it is possible that he didn't understand that was a request to see him more. on the other hand, it is possible that he did understand that it was a request to see him more but he doesn't see any of his clients more than once per week (maybe as a matter of policy) or maybe he is completely booked up so he simply can't fit you in for another session.

maybe... he wants to see how you respond to this so he can process that...

anger.

cool :-)

oftentimes idealising transference can be a defence against hostile feelings... we can be afraid that if they know we feel mad that they will hate us / be mad at us / intentionally hurt us / reject us... processing angry feelings can be really important. it must hurt too though, i understand that. today was meant to be the first of my an extra session every two weeks sessions. but he cancelled on me (flu or cold or something). its kinda hard... but i'm kinda coping... tempting to be a bit mean to him on friday... (assuming he is well enough to see me then)... but no doubt i'll melt and we will have a really good session.

can you bring it up again as a more direct request?

e.g., 'would it be possible for me to see you more than once per week'?