Hi, Hope. Thanks so much for your reply. I was actually molested when I was younger (about age 6 or 7) by my brother, and I guess I just dealt with it by trying to improve myself and my personality every day. And I think it got to the point where I can barely talk to people much anymore. Maybe it's because I have trust issues. I dunno. My parents always told me that I was the most outgoing, friendliest kid and would always be first to talk to someone and make friends. And then I switched schools in middle school and everything was different. It's hard for me to admit this, but I think I changed myself to fit in with others and almost try to become invisible in a way.
Sorry I'm babbling a bit. I just gotta say one more thing - high school has been so so hard for me personally. I'm a junior now, and freshman year was def the hardest year by far for me. I went almost 10 years in denial that my brother really could've molested me, and that's the year that I found out it was true.
Alright, now I'll try to be a bit more positive xD I know high school doesn't last forever, and I know I have some great friends. It's just really hard right now. I thnk I'm gonna start seeing a therapist again, so hopefully that'll help.
Thank you so much for replying. If you ever wanna talk to me, please feel free to message me I'm pretty good at listening if you'd like to talk, and (sorry this may sound a bit selfish) but I honestly think it'd be amazing to talk to someone who has survived molestation and the "teenage years" dealing with all of it, along with social anxiety. Wow, you are one strong woman