I am 17 years old and I've been suffering form severe depression for 3 years. I also have usual panic attacks. Quite a lot of times, ever since I was little, I get paranoid and believe that everyone I know is against me and want me dead, or that there are paranormal beings around me, trying to hurt me. This period is very hard for me and I have very intense suicidal thoughts which I find very hard to fight. Most of the time I feel like I'm losing touch with reality. For example, I was out last night and walking alone. For no reason at all I was heading to a place where I thought two people where seating, and I realized I was alone just as I started talking to them. Two days ago I got really paranoid (not sure if this is the right word) and I thought my brother had been possessed by a demon and my father was about to kill me with a knife. I felt desperate, alone and afraid. This isn't the first time this has happened. For a few years now I've been seeing and hearing a lot of weird things too. Like, many times, when I walk the road down my house I see dead people inside cars. But right now, it's really awful, I feel like I'm losing touch with reality more and more, especially since my depression got worse (I was actually getting better but it got bad again). I don't feel safe with or without people and I'm afraid I'm not able to fight this time and get through it. I'm tired. Please help me.