Thanks for the advice. Hopefully there won't be much spending, the bank account is already empty and credit cards are maxed, so I can't really do anymore damage to that. Mania doesn't usually make me any more psychotic than I already am (since I have schizoaffective), but I will be on the lookout for that, because I hadn't really thought about it. I'm hoping that getting the first three days done while I'm off work will help, and I have a short week this week thanks to Easter, so hopefully it doesn't interfere with work. If it does, I have FMLA time set aside for bad episodes, so I shouldn't have to worry about my job if I get too manic.

Part of me feels stupid for knowingly triggering an episode, but at the same time, I know that I need to quit for so many reasons. Hopefully the pros outweigh the cons in the end. I also hope that I actually am able to quit for good this time, and that I'm not throwing myself into mania for nothing.