so, I've lost alot of weight cause I've been sick alot. I can't eat because either my stomach hurts so I'm not hungry, or I'm about to throw up so I can't stomach anything. other times I literally forget to eat cause I'm not hungry. but my GI specialist wants a consult cause she thinks I'm anorexic. my therapist and my GP and my parents don't think I have one. Idk.
I'll admit I was happy the first time I lost a few pounds But when it dropped to like me losing a few more pounds I realized how thin I was. I am really self concious of my stomach. I feel like its never flat enough. That started in 6th grade. back then I actually did consider cutting out snacks but Idk if I did. I actually was scared people would think I was pregnant cause my stomach was so big, at least I thought. but people seem to think I have a flat stomach.
I am scared of getting "Fat" or gaining too much weight. But I don't conciously diet or exercise to lose weight. I'm always looking in the mirror and tightening my shirt to see my figure. this morning I accidentally put on my sister's jeans (she does not weigh much). they fell off! lol. but sometimes I look at old pics of me and think "man I weighed a little to much" or whatever. but other times I look at them and I'm like, "man I was soo much healthier. I looked so much better."
So Idk. For awhile I was scared I was anorexic. but I thought to be anorexic you have to actually diet. and when I'm hungry, I eat! Chocolate, and everything!
So, what do you think?