Well I guess I will know when I see this ''professional'' that my mother was telling me about.She's getting me an appointment with them.
I was telling her that it really doesn't matter no one can tell you
what you think and feel only you can tell this and it might be a waste of time
to hear some glorious explanation as to what Might really be going on with me
When I am the one suffring it's easy for them to say and it's so easy for them to think and feel but they don't know what I (MYSELF) have to deal with. And they may never be able to understand me. I think so called diagnoses are just view points of their over perception In actuality none of us are ''normal'' what might be crazy to one person makes ground breaking sense to another. So We will just have to wait and see how it goes..In honesty I am not too happy about any of this I was going to just call it off Tell her no but she is so persistent about things I know it's hard for all of us but Well we just have to cope. So looking at it from her standpoint of view I must be such a horrible person I must be such a terrible horribly worthless person and I feel so bad that She has to put up with me.She has to have a daughter like me a worthless life of a human being that does nothing but cause her grief..I hate it! I hate it.. I guess that's why she wants me to get help..Because I obviously can't help myself..
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In addition I did the sanity score thing today and got these results
So this was my score. I got an 100% in schizophrenia this time!
But this time I answered all the questions truthfully with the help of a family member
Because I was skipping out on some things and not being totally honest with my answers.

General Coping 39
Life Events 31
Depression 69
Anxiety 49
Phobias 67
Self-Esteem 42
Eating Disorders 10
Schizophrenia 100
Dissociation 83
Mania 75
Sexual Issues 0
Relationship Issues 0
Alcohol 0 Drugs 0
Physical Issues 0
Smoking Issues 0
Gambling Issues 0
Technology Issues 31
Obsessions/Compulsions 6
Posttraumatic Stress 8
Borderline Traits 29

(Schizophrenia 100%) ...... -_-