I joined this site last week, have been logging on, reading posts and posting, visiting chat rooms. I feel like I "Belong" here, with people that have the same issues as myself. I have bi-polar, I forget if it is 1 or 2, but I do remember it is rapid cycling. Depressoin is also a major issue. I have been in a little hypo-mania, off of meds for a short time due to liver disease, and have been up, up and down, down, then confused in the middle. When talking to people, or chatting in chat room, I realize that I may get too chatty, then afterwards I feel ashamed(?) that I chatter so much..what must people think?? I talk a lot when in mania...cry when in depression..never normal... How is it possible to feel good about yourself when you constantly have to think "Did I talk to much....did I ramble on???" or "why did I cry??" Before I was diagnosed with Bipolar, everyone thought I had depression, then when in mania they thought I was just happy, bubbly, hyper, impulsive... now that I have a label...it's a whole new game and people act like I am someone else...??!!