How do you learn how to trust. My paranoia is stopping me from having trust with anyone. I have to meet the right people. Has anyone had this problem? I mean I didn't trust my parents at one point.

My main symptom is paranoia, I think I have bi polar with psychosis. Ii only trust about 7 people in my life and they are sick of my paranoid scenerios. So who do I talk too. One day I can wake up and I feel fine, then there's days where I can't leave the house because of my paranoia. It really sucks. What should I do? I'm such a good person but when I cycle it makes me look like such a self centered piece of ****.

All I wanna do is go get a sand which without thinking people are out to get me.