Hello,

I'm majorly depressed right now. I'm bipolar with PTSD and OCD. I'm currently on the low end of the scale. I had a surgery about four weeks ago and had to crush all my pills or take disolving forms. Anyways, my disolvable lamictal was too powerful at that dose (200mg), so my doctor reduced it down to 100 mg and told me to take propranolol with it (to stop the tremors I was having). I was on a mild roller coaster for about a week and a half. Then she increased my lamotragine to 150 mg, because I could start taking pills again. Now, I'm in a very serious full blown depression. I cannot see my doctor for another week. I am not sure how fast one can move up on lamictal (or lamotragine), but I'd imagine they might be able to move me up 50 in a week? I have to leave my doctor a message tomorrow letting her know what is going on. I've only had this doctor for about 5 months.My other doctor left the practice. So, this new doctor doesn't know my history about lessening my lamotragine and depression. I don't know what I was thinking when I agreed to let her do that. I know better than to lower my medicine. It just makes me feel worse knowing that I did this to myself. I know my mood is basically chemical, but it doesn't take away the pain knowing that. I wish it did. I've also got schoolwork (because I'm in college) and have loads of work that is due this week. Not a good time to be debilitated like this. I guess it is never a good time to be this way. Well, that's about it. Maybe some words of encouragement or tips to perk up will help...Thanks