Wow wow wow thank you for the welcomes and the replies everyone. I didn't think talking to others here could be so comforting. Thank you for the information, sidestepper. waterknob, I think you can agree with me when I say that psychomeds are not very forgiving if you leave them behind. I have been getting better, I think. I am still having the thoughts, just not very strong feelings about them. It leaves me feeling a little confused, and unsettled, but it is a little bit of recovery, I suppose.