The benzo discussion again..

I don't see why my pdoc took me off the clonazepam 1mg. He's very anti benzo. I have been studying benzos and reading stories on them for over a year. I know what I'm in for and I don't get addicted. I went cold turkey and nothing happened. Just the same anxiety as when I didn't take them.

I can easily stop a panic attack on my own. Last panic attack I've had was years ago but its only stopped right before I pass out so I would consider them to be severe anxiety attacks. It would be nice to have a prn benzo. I wouldn't take it long term because that's just ridiculous.

So ya I can't have any atm which is really stupid. I think that I have a high tolerance to anxiety because I'm usually hyper anyways so its just always there and I try to ignore it. I wouldn't care much about my anxiety attacks if it wasn't for the hyper awareness of my heart and how I could get heart failure.

I'm not going to even bother asking for anything anymore from my pdoc because I just end up getting humiliated and anxious talking about it.

Benzos are basically the only thing that will help me sleep during very severe anxiety attacks where I stay up for days and most sleeping pills are benzo derivatives anyways so there's really nothing that we can do.

And I'm not afraid of getting addicted because I know what I'm doing and I have good self control when It comes to: Suffer through anxiety or.. get addicted. I mean it's hard for 99% of people but not for me.