I know I'm not meant to be on here, but I need to explain things.

First off the knife, I dont want to be stabbed, I want to stay safe. I'm anxious without it and its super difficult to leave the house without it.

Second the things I say to my nurse, if I dont say stuff about it, there is no proof, right now there is a lot of it. Without it when they do kill me, people wouldn't know why, now they will.

Well that's my reasons.