I called my insurance to find out the diagnosis given by my psychiatrist and therapist and they told me "Manic Depressive Bipolar". I find this strange because my Therapist always tells me she does not believe I am bipolar.

I really have no problem with the diagnosis, if it is really my issue. I would like to know an honest diagnosis so I could receive the right kind of medication and care and life can start feeling better already! HOWEVER...I only ever experience extremely depressive states. When i do come out of them, I would not say I am elated or full of well-being, life, energy, etc. The moments my depression has eased up consisted of normal behavior like visiting friends and family again, enjoying most of the things I used to enjoy, being able to get out of bed and run errands, do housework...just the basics of a "normal life".

So I am not sure how he could have concluded I am Bipolar? Am I missing something? I honestly don't even feel I have experienced a hypomanic episode, so this is all just really mind boggling to me. It is very bothersome because my Psychiatrist put me on Depakote, which controls mania and impulse. The only thing I notice from Depakote is extra depression, lethargy, sleepiness, etc. I fear I am on a medication that is causing me harm and no good, but no matter how much I voice this concern to my doctor, he ignores it. He is such a great man and wonderful at his job, but he is often way too busy and I feel he misses key details.

Any advice and input would be so greatly appreciated, because I need help coping with this if it really is my diagnosis.