I'm sorry that you don't like yourself , I experienced it too. You say that you aren't able to make friends on internet, but I think that you surly have friends who care about you here. I care , and surly also many others. We are here for you if you want to chat, don't forget it.
But I can understand that you want also friends in real life. You could really volunteer for dogs, or find another activity that you like. If you meet people with a passion in common with you it could be easier to become friends.