I keep getting this sense that I have over dramatised my life? To be honest, at this stage of my recovery I'm not sure if I'm in denial? Or whether I'm able to trust more that T is really there for me and I can start to let go some of the dramatisation?

I know I was talking yesterday in T about how I had had a daydream of a time when I was about 9 or 10 and I felt how I emotionally alone I was and I visulised T sitting beside me and I felt how different my life would have been if I had had neurturing like T gives me.

I told T about this daydream and how I felt bad about myself at that age, so alone. T said it was easier to see myself as bad rather than my life.

I replied, that my life wasn't bad, difficult yes, bad no. T just sort of replied wiht a quite Mmmmm..

I just feel I want to get to a real level within myself. I mean what thoughts would I have alone on a desert island where there is no one to hear me? Would they be the same as now or would some drop away because I have no need for them? I honestly don't know.