I posted a while back about struggling with PTSD at work. I don't know if posting here actually helps, just can't find anyone around me who would understand so here I am! I hate the hypervigilance so much. I can never give people the benefit of the doubt because I observe and notice every single thing. Like I walk into a room and I'll notice if they suddenly change the conversation topic, or I'll notice the subtle changes in their facial expressions. I can tell when people are talking about me. I pick up on every word that is said. I sit in a room and I'm listening out for things going on outside the room. I can actually hear the conversations and laughter of people outside the room I'm in. I can't turn it off. It makes me so distrustful. I think some of it is probably real but maybe some of it is exaggerated. Or my brain just jumps to the worst conclusion. Someone who knows what this is like, please help...
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"We deny that we're tired, we deny that we're scared, we deny how badly we want to succeed. And most importantly, we deny that we're in denial. We only see what we want to see and believe what we want to believe, and it works. We lie to ourselves so much that after a while the lies start to seem like the truth. We deny so much that we can't recognize the truth right in front of our faces."
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