Depression scares the people that care about us. I can empathize with the feelings of others apparently telling you that you are not trying hard enough; I've heard that from my wife from time to time. It's a long road; getting other people to understand your depression is often next to impossible - unless, of course, they suffer with it too. That, as littlemiss noted, is why we're all here - we suffer with this horrible affliction, and we really do care. Please keep coming back...none of us deserve this, and all of us deserve to feel some relief.