I am thankful for this space here to write anonymously. I have hit a point where I am struggling more than I have an years. Yet there is no time for you to see me for a few weeks. Innoway, I don't blame you. I'm glad you are busy and successful. I have been a long time client of yours though. You have said that there is nothing available for appointments until sometime in May. I don't know if you are trying to set up boundaries for yourself or for me. I just know that I can't depend upon you or trust you right now the way I thought I could. This saddens me. I'm going to shut up now. And do my best. No text, I promise I will not reach out anymore. I have my dog and other things that hopefully I will find comfort in. However, my heart and brain struggle to understand this situation. At least I have myself. That has to be enough. Please respect my confusion, my sadness, and my desire to just fade away. I have a long time to think about the next appointment and whether this is really helpful anymore. I'm going to do my best to think of my own well-being and what I need. It is very difficult because I usually put others first. Maybe that is one thing you are trying to teach me as well. By putting yourself, your schedule, etc before my needs as a client which at the time Phil urgent. Maybe you are not trying to teach me anything and have not given us a second thought. I'm not going to try to figure this out. I am not well. I will find my way.

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