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I've said it before and i'll say it again, you are too kind my friend. Thanks for the ideas/suggestions ... I would tell my parents that i dont want them paying for me (because i certainly don't!) but right now i dont have a job, so when it comes to rent again - as of june - if i dont have a job then they will have to. The way they see it if i dont have a job up here now then i wont then, and so they're just making me go home. And no they don't know about my T ... or anything actually ... and while maybe it seems like it would help things if i told them about whats been going on, it would honestly only make things worse and WAY more awkward between us.

Oh well i guess we'll just have to see ... maybe some miracle will happen and i'll be able to stay here ...