In two or so weeks, I'm being evaluated to see if I need leg braces. I'm 18 and have had physical issues since puberty (possible CMT and RA), but have also had terrible anxiety and depression in the past. I had to leave school two years ago because I was missing too much and joined an online school. Since then, my anxiety has improved TREMENDOUSLY, but I'm still having issues. I'm shy and self conscious.
I'm scared of the stares I'll get with braces, and being unable to wear the clothes I feel comfortable in (since losing weight I've felt awesome in skinny jeans, but skinny jeans and braces don't really mix) which will make my anxiety even worse.
I think I look horrible in non-form-fitting jeans and big athletic shoes. I'm afraid that my depression will worsen, which always makes my ADHD affect me more too.
I've struggled with my looks since being bullied for them in school, and I've finally settled and feel more comfortable with myself. I don't usually have a problem with braces and assistive devices because my problems make me really need them, but something as visible as leg braces? I don't know how to deal with it.
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